Tabula Rasa: I Cleared Everything to Remember Who I Am

I just removed Instagram, LinkedIn, and Xing from my phone.

Not to escape.

But to return.

To stillness.

To my body.

To my own frequency.

For too long, I tried to create from control.

From strategy.

From “what works".

”From “what they expect”.

But none of it felt like mine.

And in this moment, what’s true is this:

I want to throw everything away.

Not because I’m lost — but because I’m finally ready to be found.

By God. By truth. By the part of me that doesn’t perform to belong.

This is my Tabula Rasa.

The sacred clearing.

I even cleared and rebuilt my entire website — not to make it perfect, but to make it honest.

To mirror what’s actually true for me now.

Every pixel, every word, every silence on that site now feels like mine.

Tabula Rasa isn’t emptiness for its own sake — it’s a sacred clearing.

A return to what is truly yours. What’s essential. What’s God-given.

It’s the refusal to keep building on borrowed structures.

It’s the deep, holy NO to:

• Systems that silence you

• Habits that numb you

• Identities that aren’t yours

• Commitments made from fear, not truth

This is the moment I stopped performing and started listening.Not to strategy. But to stillness. To the part of me that knows.

And in that fierce clearing, the whisper arises:

“This is me. Not the version they praised. Not the one I perfected. Just the one who knows.”

You don’t need more noise. You need yourself, unfiltered.

So yes — throw away the journal that pushed.

Clear the desk that holds forgotten strategies.

Unfollow, unsubscribe, uninstall.

Let the silence feel awkward. That’s where the soul gets loud.

I no longer want to build a business.

I want to build a life that speaks.

That nourishes. That calls in the right people because it’s real.

If you’re walking this too — your own quiet, sacred undoing — I see you.

And if this speaks to you, I’d love to hear from you.

You’re not alone.

🎧 This story lives in my voice, too.

I recorded a companion episode for the moments when nothing happens—when silence feels like failure, but is actually something sacred.

→ Listen here: When Nothing Happens — The Power of the Pause

There’s also a reflection card and voice note waiting for you: When Nothing Happens: The Power of the Pause One quiet moment. One threshold. → Explore the card